Comfort Food

I've been bad...I've eaten approximately 800 calories of pure chocolate over the last three days. When you think that it takes 3500 calories for one pound of fat to form on your body, this poor choice of mine seems like a major setback on the grand scheme of things. Chocolate is definitely one of the comfort foods for me. After dinner, I always feel like popping one sweet thing in my mouth. What to do, what to do? But my chocolate binge is not the topic here.

Speaking of comfort food, if you haven't gotten the gist already from other posts, I'm still nursing my daughter. When I was pregnant, our plan was that I will definitely be a SAHM for the first year of her life. I mentioned before that I will be going back to school in fall right around the same time LC will turn a year-old. As that time draws closer, I've been thinking more about weaning my daughter.

It's definitely going to be a heart-breaking experience, but one that all of us go through whether it's getting weaned from the breast or the bottle. Not only is it food that nourishes our children, but also a source of comfort. When they are crying and nothing calms them, there's nothing like cuddling your child and nursing her that will stop that pouting and sniffling. Even my husband was sad that he doesn't get the same bonding we get through the nursing experience.

My mother breastfeed my siblings and I all for one year and on the anniversary just cut us off cold turkey. After inconsolably crying for several days, the poor things have no choice but take to another food source. When that day comes, I know I'm gonna be bawling as hard as her. Daddy's gonna have to be strong for both of us!

It's been almost 8 months since I've had someone attached to the bosom and now I notice that the milk on the left side is starting to diminish. I've heard from many women that it's completely normal but the side effect is that your chest gets lopsided if you're not careful in emptying the side with the more milk. Obviously you wouldn't want the "TWINS" turn into older and younger sibling and plus pointing in two different directions! I never said they're gonna be like pre-baby...

Anyway, I won't ramble on any longer, it's been on my mind a lot lately and in a weird way, I'm both dreading and looking forward to the separation in that sense. I know that nursing has been a big contributor to the separation anxiety we're both feeling. Come to think of it - when I stop nursing, there's probably 1 or 2 pounds to be lost from my breasts in liquid alone! A mini-Yay for Jojo!